842.1864.Patience—has a quiet Outer—
Patience—has a quiet Outer—
Patience—Look within—
Is an Insect’s futile forces
Infinites—between—
‘Scaping one—against the other
Fruitlesser to fling—
Patience—is the Smile’s exertion
Through the quivering—
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ED lists two alternate words in Line 7 and two alternates, Lines 7-8 {in curly brackets}. I prefer ED’s original words and phrase.
My biographical interpretation of ‘Patience—has a quiet Outer—’:
S1
My family sees my outward quiet appearance, but that is superficial. If they could look within, they would see a futile struggle between infinite forces.
S2
If I escape the pain of living life, the pain of separation from Him descends, ripping open my healing wound. He told me we would meet and marry in Heaven, so I force a smile, though my lips are quivering.
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ED lists two alternate words in Line 7 and two alternates, Lines 7-8 {in curly brackets}. I prefer ED’s original words and phrase:
Line 7:
Patience—is the Smile’s {Mouth’s; Love’s} exertion
Lines 7- 8:
Smile’s exertion {Mean of forces} —
Through the quivering {Stand by Her Wing}
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In Master Letter 1 (JL187, draft, spring 1858), ED invited Reverend Wadsworth to visit her in Amherst:
“Listen again, Master. I did not tell you that today had been the Sabbath Day.
“Each Sabbath on the Sea, makes me count the Sabbaths, till we meet on shore ¬¬─ and (will the) whether the hills will look as blue as the sailors say. I cannot talk any more (stay any longer) tonight (now), for this pain denies me.
“How strong when weak to recollect, and easy, quite, to love. Will you tell me, please to tell me, soon as you are well.”
ED knew that Wadsworth was nationally known for his powerful, pew-filling sermons and probably did not expect him to come. Wadsworth probably knew from ED’s previous letters that she had heard him deliver a sermon in March 1855 and probably guessed, correctly, that his deep bass voice and oratorical skills had stolen her heart.
Wadsworth was the love of ED’s life. He probably knew how she felt because her feelings were obvious in her Master Letter Drafts ML1 (JL187, Spring 1858), ML2 (JL248, early 1861), and ML3 (JL233, Summer 1861).
ED’s poems honor Wadsworth by capitalizing all his pronouns, just as she capitalized God’s. In fact, ED seems to think of Wadsworth as God’s doppelgänger.
“Fruitlesser” (Line 6) is an ED original, a humdinger comparative adjective.