737.1863.I many times thought Peace had come

I many times thought Peace had come
When Peace was far away —
As Wrecked Men — deem they sight the Land —
At Centre of the Sea —

And struggle slacker — but to prove
As hopelessly as I —
How many the fictitious Shores —
Before the Harbor be —[Variant B]  (Or any Harbor be – [Variant A])

ED sometimes wrote two variants of a poem for different audiences. She copied this poem with the “pessimist” last line, “Or any Harbor be” (Variant A), into Fascicle 35 but added the optimistic alternative, “Before the Harbor be –” (Variant B) beside the poem. Editors who present the optimistic variation include Todd (1891), Johnson (1955), Bianchi (1960), and DeGraff (2024, above). Franklin (1999) and Miller (2024) chose the pessimistic variation. ED certainly knew what she was doing when she added the alternative.

Perhaps she was leaving the door open to accommodate her mood du jour. Or perhaps, in modern parlance, ED described her bipolar cycles. How many times did she see a mirage of “Shores” or “Harbor” in a mental storm, only to drown in another maelstrom of depression? Or F737 may describe the painful disintegration of ED and Sue’s teenage infatuation. When Ed wrote this poem in 1863, their differences were unresolved and they remained that way [brackets mine]:

“After a quarter century’s intimacy [1850-1875] with Sue, Emily sent her ‘What mystery pervades a well!’, F1433, 1877] across the stretch of lawn between their homes. . . . In the end, [ED] identified the one vast attribute her earthly idol [Sue] shared with the harsh, judgmental, patriarchal God [whom ED] had rejected. Both were unknowable” (Longsworth 1984).

“But Susan is a Stranger yet
The Ones who cite her most
Have never scaled her Haunted House
Nor compromised her Ghost-

To pity those who know her not
Is helped by the regret
That those who know her know her less
The nearer her they get”

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• Longsworth, Polly. 1984. Austin and Mabel. University of Massachusetts Press. Paperback edition. 1999